Battle for Control

Have you ever been called a "control freak"? Well I have and it usually takes me back. But the honest reality is I do battle for control. I like to have some sort of control, infact I think I need it. I think we all do. I see it in my kids battling for control, I see it in my peers, I see it in leaders, and I see it in followers too. I’ve learned over the years of marriage and working with troubled children and adolescents to pick my battles. I’ve learned to give and take. (Not that I have always done it right, cause I haven’t)
Well prison is an entire different lesson altogether. The reality is, we or I don’t have control over anything. Well almost anything. I heard a story of an inmate trying to take his own life. He was moved to the infirmary so they could attempt to revive him. When he started to come too, he pleaded with the staff, the guards, to let him go, to let him die. The response from the guards was a little shocking. "No, you don’t have that right”, you don’t have the right to take your own life? Wow. I’ve thought about this control and "rights" a bit this week, and I realized I am most at ease, most peaceful when I give up control. When I just accept the moment by moment, minute by minute with plans, but without expectation. I wonder if this is the case with our relationship with God. Does He desire for us to give up control? (because we really don’t have it anyway) Are we to make goals and plans? Maybe we need to sit back and accept each situation, each obstacle, each hardship, each trial, each victory as the way it is and just accept not having control. Not being able to "fix it". let it be it. Let God be God. Hm I wonder...